Saturday, January 27, 2007
Well I guess someone really wake me up yesterday by telling me that everyone thinks that I am neglecting archery because of anime related stuff. At that point of time I thought, “I don’t believe it, of all people you guys who knows me better tells me that?!” so it was kind of like a “smack in the face” and I kind of wonder what am I doing?
My heart actually did kind of stop at that particular moment, and tears were forming already. Just when I quarrel with my mum this kind of stuff just have to happen. Oh well, can’t blame anything nor anyone.
So thoughts after thoughts ran through my head like a movie, frame by frame I found answers that has always been with me. So smack another thought into myself to keep me going and believing in what I want.
It just that different people have different dreams they will sacrifice to make their dreams come true. At least I am one of those? In between my own dream and an interest of mine, I will definitely sacrifice that interest of mine. Well, not forgetting that in my current situation I also can’t do much sports stuff. I can’t even stand up straight for long, my back just hurts. Don’t know how long I can hold on to also.
So now one thought that holds my dream and my soul together, it doesn’t matter if they don’t understand why am I doing all this, it only matters that I know what I am doing and what I am aiming for. When time comes, I will definitely give up archery so that it doesn’t obstacle my dream of being an animator or a comic artist.
.dark is my life.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
.dark is my life.
